Last week I experienced a very difficult, watershed day.
It was the kind of day where you experience just about every emotion known to man and wish desperately that you had the power to turn back the clock.
The truth is, I’ll be “going through it” – the pain and reality of it – for a while. But in the process I realized I’ve finally come to the point in my life where I have accepted that there is no strength in suppressing the pain of life’s experiences as I was apt to do for most of my life.
I’ve finally accepted that real strength comes from allowing yourself to go through the pain, to experience it fully and understand it fully, and then to come out the other side transformed in unexpected ways.
Strength or Vulnerability?
For years I thought the words “leadership” and “strength” were in many ways synonymous. I heard things like, “Lisa is strong, she’s a leader, she’ll be fine,” or, “you’re the leader, you need to be strong for everyone else.”
And while I’m not advocating that military leaders break down crying in the middle of battle, I have come to the point where I believe the word “leadership” can also be synonymous with the word “vulnerable.” After all, it’s our humanity that brings with it vulnerability in its purest form.
I have come to believe it’s a sign of strength to embrace this humanity and allow ourselves to accept and experience the depth of our own vulnerability.
The power of leaning on others
Last week I received a reminder that when we allow ourselves to lean on others, and to be open to letting them lead us to the truth, the energy and power between us multiplies. We, and the person or people we open ourselves up to, all leave the experience more empowered.
When we lean on others it is a gift to them, an opportunity for them to serve and to experience the joy of giving in the process.
When we choose to lean on someone who knows us at our core, who knows the path we’ve taken in our life and who understands what causes our pain, then we are destined to see the truth through them that we cannot see alone, in that moment, through our tears.
Sometimes, to be able to lead requires leaning on others in order to simply see that truth…enabling us to get back to our true leadership path.
The power of letting go
And this is where knowing your true path is invaluable. Because it’s during those difficult and transformational times in our lives when it’s so easy to lose our way.
Knowing in our soul what our true leadership path is, and letting go of what is not on that path, even if it tempted us at our core, is at the essence of being true leaders simply by living our lives.
Are you strong enough to lean on others and let go?
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35 Response Comments
I really enjoyed reading this article, especially mentioning the vulnerability piece. In my latest post, I posted about how vulnerability will help expose you to different things. I believe that vulnerability and letting go, while not one in the same, can be and it’s important to do both.
We have this ego piece that loves to hold on to what we know and after so long, holds us back from our true greatness. At some point, we have to let go just so we can allow ourselves to be vulnerable, to see, in many cases, what’s right in front of us. The best part is that this post is not just for leaders. Sometimes, we all need to be in a position of vulnerability just to understand where something isn’t working anymore.
Thanks again for this wonderful post!
Timothy,
Thanks to you for a beautiful and eloquent comment! You said it splendidly…allowing ourselves to be vulnerable enables us to see what’s right in front of us, to understand it and then to go beyond it to our own, true greatness. Thank you for that and have a beautiful day!
Thanks Lisa for writing this. I think too often I keep issues and struggles to myself, as if it would be a burden to share it with others, and I try to spare them from hearing about it. Thanks for giving me a new way to look at this. And hope this has been a better week 😉
Thank you, Mack – I appreciate that. I hope the new way of looking at it feels empowering in some way. The word “burden” is a very emotional and heavy word…share it with others and it manages to transform all involved in special ways. And yes, it has been a better week – hugs to you. 🙂
Lisa, sometimes the real strength of a leader lies not in maintaining the appearance of control, but in the courage to be vulnerable and transparent with others. It takes strength and courage to self-assess the paths we choose to follow and to be willing to change when that path is no longer in alignment with who we essentially are.
Bravo to you for a heartfelt and courageous post!
Agreed – you said it so eloquently! And thank you…
Lisa,
This post means a lot to me. I feel like I don’t things very gracefully and often question my abilities as a leader, especially when I am going through personal stuff.
I forget that people care about me and love me just the way I am. It seems to me that the more vulnerable I am the more people embrace me. It’s such a marvelous process.
When I let go of conditions and people I can’t control I make room for things I can: ME and my reactions. Sometimes people, places, things really piss me off and I am feel like I am left behind or losing something but….after I take a deep breath, meditate, pray, write about it…I feel fresh and open the door to huge possibilities.
So often I am saddened by the pain but find those to be the BEST lessons life gives me. The experience thereafter are greater, more meaningful and instead of dreading the departure or loss I find my faith in God grows deeper and know that my life is fuller for it.
I warmly welcome all the hellos and goodbyes life has and meet both with gladness.
I am uber happy to have you in my life.
thanks for sharing your authenticity and transparency with me. I promise that it is not something I will take for granted.
🙂 much love…jNo
(where’s the darn like button when you need it?) 😉
:)!!
Jessica,
I really appreciate you letting me know how much it meant to you and for sharing a bit of yourself here. You’ve pointed out some beautiful ways to deal with life’s challenges…breathing, meditating, praying, writing – I can relate to all of those – and love how you talk about them leaving you feeling fresh (renewed) and open. The more we allow ourselves to do this with others in our lives – to enable them to see our vulnerability and help us walk through it – the more transformed we become.
I’m honored to have you in my life as well. 🙂 Hugs and much love….
I think that this has been attributed to Rumi:
“The pain IS the path.”
I googled it and can’t find the proper attribution, but the sentiment is sound, nonetheless. There is something sublime about transcending difficulty by surrendering to it. When we admit vulnerability, we allow a sort of cosmic vacuum to occur: our weakness is “filled” by the strength of another.
You impress me so. Love & light sent your way. My best, M.
You are a true blessing in my life, Molly! Thank you for sharing this beautiful sentiment. Sending radiant light and hugs of love back to you…
Something must be in the air because it has been that kind of week. Tough stuff going on here, too and I so appreciate you sharing.
I have a hard time leaning on others when times are tough. It’s something I have to work on to get through what it ahead.
What I am getting better at is letting feelings flow and not forcing them to be “right.” After a while the bad feelings subside and better ones can come to light.
Glad to hear this week is better. One day at a time, as they say.
Hi Susan,
Yes, one day at a time… It’s wonderful to hear that you’re getting better at letting your feelings out and not judging them. That was difficult for me this week – having others say, “You shouldn’t feel this way.” Our feelings are simply our feelings. I believe it’s better to embrace them and work through them than to deny them or judge them in any way. All the best to you with your current challenges, Susan!
Lisa:
I have done and continue to do this work in my life. I often say that I have “rewired my legacy”. It has required me to dig deep, risk being exposed, feeling vulnerable and out of control. All of which has served my marriage, my kids, my friendships and my work with my clients in ways that have been incredibly rewarding.
I am passionate about modeling what this looks like to the next generation. It is what helps us to understand humanity.
Once again, thanks.
Nan
How beautiful, Nan. What a testament to the work you are doing to know that it is clearly reflected in your life through all your layered relationships! I’m honored that you’ve shared your own experience here; thank you!
Powerful post Lisa and so much truth in this.
Without getting into specific details, there is someone in my life who is the “rock” for everyone. And I can tell at times this can be a burden (as much as this person tried not to let on).
Sometimes it takes a little nudge from someone to tell them its OK to rely on others. Sometimes it can be as simple as someone listening to what’s on their minds. I have witnessed the relief this person felt by “letting go”. No one has to be a steel door at all times, showing vulnerabilities can be liberating at times.
I actually think this process was both energizing and re-rejuvenating for this person. And I let them know I still respect all that they do and they are truly appreciated. At the same time, it felt good to be the rock for this person.
Thank you, Adam. Well, your story is the proof! How wonderful that you were able to be the one who was able to reach out and help – your joy in the process is proof that burdens are so much lighter when shared! Thanks so much for sharing your own experience here – I really appreciate it!
Somewhere we learn that being vulnerable is a negative trait of a leader. The irony is most people are more apt to follow someone willing to show their vulnerabilities. I thank you for sharing yours.
Thank you, Greg – that means a lot to me coming from you. 🙂 Hugs!
Great post Lisa! My constant struggle as an administrator is finding MY leadership style. Your post explains exactly what I’ve gone through. In fact, here’s a glimpse of the most vulnerable I’ve been as a Principal. There was one particular moment when I had my “awakening”. It actually came at the beginning of last school year. I don’t remember the date, but I do remember everything else that transpired. I was giving devotions to my faculty and was right in the middle of my opening prayer. Right after I said the words, “Father, I can’t do this on my own…”, I completely lost it and started crying. Now let me tell you, I didn’t just shed a single, solitary tear that slowly rolled down my cheek. I completely lost it. I couldn’t finish my prayer. It was extremely difficult to get through the rest of my devotions, cause my heart was wrenched. In reflection, I knew exactly what had happened in that moment, and who I was becoming as an administrator. Thanks again for sharing. God bless you!
Cameron, this is such a moving and glorious story. I can’t thank you enough for being inspired to share it here. It appears that you are finding and living your true path…I’m genuinely inspired by that! Enjoy the path and all its beauty!
Lisa,
I don’t have any idea what you experienced this past week. I can only hope that as you are walking through this you will soon know that each of life’s challenges shapes and defines us. And part of the challenge is not being afraid of letting people “see” YOU.
I have come to realize that my time in the desert has taught me more about life than any other of my experiences. I want to share a two examples.
Are you familiar with the palo verde tree? They serve as “nurse” plants for saguaro cacti by providing a canopy – in effect, a microhabitat – which offers warmth in winter and shade in summer. The slower-growing, longer-lived cactus will eventually replace its one-time protector. This is incredible to witness. I have saguaros in my front yard that are more than 150 years old. And then some beautiful palo verdes that are “nursing” some young saguaros.
Here in Tucson we have Gambel quails. They are a non-migratory bird that basically walks quickly through the brush and undergrowth. They fly very little, short bursts. Scientists say they are monogamous. The amazing thing about them is that the parents support the chicks. When you see them walking along one parent will be in the front leading the brood and the other parent will walk behind the last chick. You see, they take care of each other and if they come across an orphaned chick they immediately welcome it to their brood.
I learned a long time ago that you cannot always be the powerful mountain. As I told our mutual friend, Jorja White, “Mountains may inspire us, but the valleys are created by rivers and streams…they give us life.”
Renewal…
Judy
Judy, this is such a gift. Thank you for every beautiful, elegant, inspiring word. You are a true friend – and I appreciate having you in my life. Hugs of gratitude…
Lisa, thank you for being you.
Steve, thank you for listening and always being there for me. 🙂
Lisa, you struck a note with this post; all the comments show how crucial it is to be yourself and be vulnerable. Level V leadership… easier said than done.
Embracing humility allows us to seek out others to lean on and learn. High emotional intelligence trumps ego. Great post.
Craig
Thank you, Craig! And yes…easier said than done. 🙂
Well, I don’t like this post. Not one jot.
Sure, it’s well written and gorgeous and eloquent and everything else great…
But I don’t want to hear that you’re having a hard time =/ That makes me sad.
I hope you know I’m around if you ever need to talk.
Now as for the rest of the post, yes, talking is very important, but in the online world there’s also a fine line between sharing and asking for help versus over-sharing or sharing to get attention.
By the way, you tread that line perfectly here.
Thank you, Margie – on all counts! Your support and kind words mean so much to me. And you’re right, I was really writing about the offline world. The dynamics of relationships can be different online… Thank you again 🙂
Lisa, I don’t know you or what you’ve just gone through, but the part about dealing with something painful that makes you want to turn the clock back is something I’ve experienced. Yes, you will remember it for a long time, but you will heal over time, even though it may be hard to imagine right now. I remember coming to work everyday trying to keep things stable for an entire staff and school community affected by a tragedy, and going home late each night to deal with my own grief – for weeks. We find the strength somewhere to keep going for others. And when I was dealing with my toughest moments, others lifted me up by letting me know they cared. Today the sadness remains but the pain has eased. We often talk about authentic leadership and it is difficult to define. I do believe that showing who we are, letting others see our ups and downs and the challenges we experience as we deal with the pain not only makes us stronger, it also connects us in deeper ways with the people around us – family, colleagues, friends. I wouldn’t be where I am today without them. Best wishes to you in the weeks ahead. While being there for others, take time to draw your strength from the people around you who care and are there for you!
I can’t thank you enough for the gift of this comment and for your uplifting and eloquent words. Hugs of solace to you as you still work through your sadness, and hugs of gratitude for sharing your personal experience here…
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